I want and more importantly need to be alone quite often. Its when I’m at my happiest. Its me.
With this comes hurt feelings. I don’t care. Its likely that if you don’t spend much time with yourself, I won’t like you much anyway. I mean, get a life. Do you. Get a hobby…whatever the fuck you want. If you aren’t sure where you stand on this, ask your closest friend or family member if you’re needy or annoying. If they pause…you are. Simple.
Anyway back to me…
People physically drain me. It doesn’t make me mad at you, it doesn’t mean I’m depressed. Antisocial…maybe.
I just need to be alone with my thoughts, a book, some music, likely food and wine as well. Now don’t get me wrong…you could get the feeling of loneliness and sadness but guess what THAT’S OK! Embrace those feelings. At least you are feeling, so many people go without feeling. Just don’t get bored, in fact avoid that.
Being alone..recharges me. But although I am weird…its only a little because other things recharge me also…my man for one….
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Glad you’re writing again. I meant to post that on your previous entry, but got distracted, as I often do. [Squirrel.] Not sure exactly how I found you, but I think we’re connected by several degrees of common contacts on some social network and I checked out your blog. I started following because I can relate to a lot of the things you have in your bio or other posts that I skimmed through: writing, overthinking, relationships, losing yourself, being alone/borderline anti-social, bipolar [except I’m actually diagnosed. Haha. Not funny. I apologize in advance for my twisted sense of humor, ramblings, and random nonsense.] People have been encouraging me to pursue my writing and I’ve been meaning to start a blog myself because it would probably be therapeutic in some way. I’m getting closer. I just turned 30 so it’s part of my plan/goal to look at things from a different perspective, seek beauty/inspiration in unexpected places, explore who I am and what I want, and hopefully pay it forward by inspiring others to do the same along the way. You seem like a cool chick with valuable insight, so hopefully this can generate some interesting dialogue and serve as a place to motivate and encourage each other. Hope this isn’t creepy. I promise not to turn into some Eminem/Stan/Catfish/Stalker/Single White Female or anything. [Was that too many examples to be convincing? Kidding.] I look forward to overthinking with you, if you’re down.
Til then… xoxo,
Thank you so much for your long but raw and so qppreciated comment!
Damn that is long… It didn’t look that long when I wrote it on the computer, but on the phone… Sorry, I’m sure I was procrastinating on something.
Amen to all that, sista