Falling in LOVE is so dope. Falling out of it is horrible.
I have fallen and it’s been quick. I give people the benefit of the doubt…I start off with full trust with my heart on my sleeve. I hate it about myself. BUT -I do it without even knowing I am doing it.
It’s possible that because of the falling IN is like this that the falling OUT can happen without much looking back. It makes me start to question everything from day 1. It keeps me from being able to focus on the good and not the bad and I hate this about myself.
I’m pretty good about analyzing myself, being honest about what I discover and expressing it BUT this confuses me. Trust is supposed to be built so why do I give it so freely. Love is supposed to grow over time so why do I let the “honeymoon” stage” take over my normal HIGHLY rational mind.
Maybe I am a hopeless romantic. Or just bipolar. Or just haven’t found the one to KEEP me IN LOVE. If I could choose my diagnosis…I choose the latter.